"My position concerning God is that of an agnostic. I am convinced that a vivid consciousness of the primary importance of moral principles for the betterment and ennoblement of life does not need the idea of a law-giver, especially a law-giver who works on the basis of reward and punishment."
-Albert Einstein

Wow it seems like ages since I typed here lol. I have been rushing around typing up questions and stuff for the oral tests at work and also been helping out a couple of others with theirs too. The tests start around next week so you can be sure I will be really busy on that week lol. Ive just finished Gullivers Travels which was so so boring and im glad I have done all of it now and just have to take the diskette over to the school to be finally rid of this book lol.

I ended up going to both parties at the weekend too lol. Actually I had a lot of fun there which was nice, it was a lot different from how I expected it to be and got to practice my portugues a lot too. I tried out a few brasilian dances too, I have to admit to liking the slower ones that my foot old feet can handle though lol. I got to talk to loads of people too and all in just portugues as there were very few people there who spoke English. It’s a shame they don’t have these sort of parties all the time.. hmmm maybe they do I just don’t know about them as im always at work lol.

The CCAA party was good fun too, although I don’t drink alcohol. A lot of people there were also not drinking though so was even better for me as there is nothing worse sometimes than being the only one doing something different. I actually did karaoke too a first for me lol. Luckily the others sounded worse than me so it didn't matter ;-). At least the songs were English so I knew most of the words but they had no guns and roses which was a tragic blow lol. Can you imagine all the soppy love songs that were sung though? They told me I had another admirer there that was asking all sorts of questions about me like.. who is he?.. is he available? Etc which I find very funny lol. It always puzzles me though why they just don’t come and ask me themselves.. hmmm must be a brasilian thing I guess right? Lol.

Okay time for me to go and get something done, I wanna go into the city if I get time as I need some new books to read as I have just about gone through anything interesting here now lol.




"I cannot conceive of a God who rewards and punishes his creatures, or has a will of the type of which we are conscious in ourselves. An individual who should survive his physical death is also beyond my comprehension, nor do I wish it otherwise; such notions are for the fears or absurd egoism of feeble souls."
-Albert Einstein

9am here, and im just finishing my first cup of coffee lol. Well to tell the truth I have been awake since 6am here but flattened the battery on my cell phone playing that bloody snake game so now I am playing here on the computer instead. I have to remember to get a roll of film for the camera this afternoon as some of my groups were asking about taking pics etc for the end of the semester and I thought it might be good fun to snap a few too for my family back in England. Hmmm I must remember to get the photocopies too for my class this afternoon. I wonder if the place is already open now as they have such strange times for opening and closing shops here in the city. Some days they are closed by 6pm where in England shops are open all the time. Ill check it in a few minutes when I go to the corner store.

Some of the students from the other school have asked me to help them set up conversation classes that are not a part of the school as they have had terrible problems trying to get this classes booked. I give them a day for conversation class and the secretaries have been telling them there isn’t a class so now we will have them out of school where CCAA haven't got influence. They were talking about having them at peoples houses and also at the pizza place up the road too as we can do stuff there and pizza is very cheap lol. I already have some stuff prepared for the MEC groups but haven't got around to using it yet so it will be nice to see if they like it or not. I will type up a couple more sets this weekend and then they can choose from what I have but usually they will go along with just about anything. Maybe doing something from childhood would be fun as everyone always has funny stories to tell about when they were children etc and I think will be fun to see how being a child here differed from my childhood in England. I like this idea. This will be the one I will type up later on this evening and then they can set up the times etc for the group. I think it will be fun as we can touch on loads of stuff from peoples memories and how its different with the present.

Can you believe that still no mail has arrived from England yet? God its been around a month now I could have got it here faster if I had sellotaped a packet of heroine to it and smuggled it into the country lol. How slow can a postal service be so slow? I will have to get them to send things recorded delivery next time so that I can track where the packages are online and see where they take so long so I have someone to complain to. Even if they had to paddle a canoe here I don’t think it would have taken this long for it to arrive here and be delivered lol. I wonder of some corrupt little official has been dipping his hand in the mail here as I was told its quite common?? I was quite looking forward to getting some letters from England as I don’t get many with the service being so bloody terrible, I think I will have to get them to send it all again.

Id better go and get moving or ill never get anything done before I have to go to work this afternoon.




"Buddhism has the characteristics of what would be expected in a cosmic religion for the future: it transcends a personal God, avoids dogmas and theology; it covers both the natural & spiritual, and it is based on a religious sense aspiring from the experience of all things, natural and spiritual, as a meaningful unity."
-Albert Einstein

Just having a break from correcting things here and trying to get online again lol. Thank god today is just extra class day and I have already given class. I have an extra sort of class later on with one of my groups but its just to watch a video and there's popcorn and stuff too so should be loads of fun ;-). Im not sure what we will watch yet, Southpark The Movie if I can find a copy of it in English I think but if not I have Red Dragon so they can watch that instead. Ill grab some cola on the way there and they are getting the popcorn and stuff so this evening looks like fun.

I might go to the LAN house later this afternoon just to waste some time, this city is so boring that I cant find anything else to do lol. Im slowly improving though I think and Fridays tends to be a good day to go over there for a couple of hours as there will be quite a few people so loads of fun and I might even get to kill more than my usual very terrible score lol. Ill see how I feel in an hour or so and maybe go. If not I can always just go to sleep and then watch that movie later on with my group. The exams will start next week so this will be my last week of having free time until I have all things corrected and all the tests out of the way.

I must remember to do some photocopies this afternoon too for my intermediate group, its all stuff for present perfect and very very boring. Ill get them to do it probably while im in the Game house as I think I will need a few copies of different things and also other things too. There is always something lol.. I have to get some stuff for the past perfect copied up as well but need to find something that’s easy for them to understand so they can just look at it and understand without having pages of grammar to read. Ill dig around in a minute and see what we have laying around here lol

Okay lunch is ready……. Im Outta here lol




if I could say what I wanna say
id say I wanna blow you…… Away
be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I wanna see
I wanna see you go down…… On one knee
Marry me today
Guess im wishing
My life away
With these things ill never say

Im trying our net connection as I type and its still not god damned working lol. Ill get onto them and make them sort it out tomorrow as I have to go early tonite to give classes for another teacher who wont be going in. Its one of my old groups from last semester with the Spice Girls so it should be a fun lesson lol. Well they think itll be a fun lesson anyway but I think we will have to hurry up this time as I have to mess around with some extra stuff and also get ready for my group later on that I have a load of photocopies to get ready for as well.

Im toying with the idea of doing a few Albert Einstein quotes, I have a few religious ones of his so ill start using them next week I think just for something a little different. Of course this guy is very deep so I don’t expect to understand all his quotes lol. Should be interesting though to read some of his sayings right? Lol. Its no fun not having a net connection to get some lyrics to use for quotes and I cant be bothered to listen over and over to the songs to type them all out.. that’s why these ones are all from the same few singers lol. Im getting lazy in my old age I guess.

Anyway im off to get something to eat as I have to run over to the school now to get ready for this class I didn't know I was going to teach lol. Bye bye……




Dirty Deeds.. Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap… AC/DC

Im just wasting time here while I wait to go over to work to work on some stuff for another of those bloody lit books. I've got nothing else better to do today though so it will help pass the time until later on. I just have class in the evening so I might go spend an hour or so there typing up this stuff and later go over to the fair as one of the guys there is supposed to be getting me some English music cds. At least I have most of my other things corrected so I don’t have to bother with those today.

Only a couple of days to go now until this party on Saturday but im in two minds as to whether to go or not. Really there will only be a couple of people there that speak English and its going to be very boring for them to spend most of their night talking with me in a language that isn’t even their own. After all will just be an obligation and I will know this all the time I am there. The most important thing is that I paid the R$10 for the charity they are raising money for. The young lady that is supposed to be interested in me? Well I think this is some sort of wind up because this person hardly ever speaks to me… Hmmm I think I will not go there.. It wont matter to them or me

I will find out today too what my other students who have been trying to get hold of the main office of CCAA rio have found out. They are really pissed that they are being forced to do things by some woman who they have never seen before and this mess is becoming worse by the day. Some days I really don’t wanna go to work as I know there's just going to be more hassle. My students feel that they should be asked or at least informed about things that the school is changing in their courses and I think they have a good point as they have been studying there a long time and have paid a lot of money for these courses and I think they aren’t being unreasonable in expecting a little in return. We will see how this mess will turn out on Sunday at this bbq they are having as the main coordinator is supposed to be there and I heard a few teachers saying that they are going to give her hell about all these many things that the students are angry about. I remember once being told that teaching is supposed to be fun..

Well I had better go and get ready to go over to the school and make a start on that stuff or I will never get it done… God where's the extra strong coffee? lol



America, hahaha, we love you, how many people are proud to be citizens of this beautiful country of our's, the stripes and the stars for the rights that men have died for to protect, the women and men who have broke their neck's for the freedom of speech the United States government has sworn to uphold, or so we're told...

Hmmm well still no net!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRR where is the net connection? Lol. Oh well not to worry ill have to copy it all to diskette and take it over to work and get it all done there or I will never get my weblog updated lol. I have loads to do now even though I have missed a couple of days out. Im hoping for some better pics from my brother too so I can post them here. We will have to see whether I have them when I get to work later on.

**Linkin Park - Pushing Me Away**

Something for the neighbors lol. Oh this morning as I walked from work I saw my little friend from down the street waving and shouting at the top of his voice bom dia professor with a huge smile all over his face ;-). His name is joao Paul and there isn’t a day goes by that he doesn’t say something to me lol. I guess he's around 4yrs old and usually I can hear him before he comes into view lol. Its nice for a change to have some of the kids from the street talk to me as usually children don’t appear very often because of all the violence in the Estancias.

On Monday I joined my group with a childrens group just for something different and was really funny. I don’t get kids groups as the school directors have this crazy idea that kids are difficult to teach but really I think its just how much fun you make it for them lol. Of course they didn't speak a lot of English but with kids you can just use the universal language of fun and games lol. Today I will be trying to drum up people to go to a sort of party from the school that will not be part of the school itself. Its sort of for fun with just students and the teachers meeting at a bar downtown where they only speak English on certain days of the week. I think will be good fun for them all and I have been there to the bar and is great inside so they should like it a lot. Also I did conversation class with an OM3 group just for fun too as I had to wait over an hour for my lift home and was very funny, although I think they were a little shy to talk with me at the start. I guess lessons are different from actually talking with someone from England lol. Anyway a BIG hi goes out to Jades OM3 group although you guys will never read this lol.

Its getting near to this party now too and just a few days to go, I was told that I will probably be doing a lot of dancing but I doubt it very much lol. At my age its more likely that I will sprain my ankles ;-). Hmm I wonder if they know something that I do not? Lol it wouldn’t surprise me, im usually the last to get told anything as they have to translate most things for me ;-). I don’t go to parties but im actually looking forward to this one for some reason, maybe because of the young lady who knows lol. On Sunday is bbq as well so that should also be interesting as I love bbq lol. I've never been to a bbq in the morning before though, I guess it must be a new thing they are trying out ;-).

Wow is that the time already? I had better get showered and get over to the bus stop and get on my way to the school. But I usually go to the coffee shop first just for a coffee and to chat to the people who work there even though they don’t really understand all of my English ;-) I need all the coffee I can get before starting the class lol.



if I could say what I wanna say
id say I wanna blow you…… Away
be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I wanna say
I wanna see you go down…… On one knee
Marry me today
Guess im wishing
My life away
With these things ill never say

After a whole weekend we are still without any net connection, ill have to copy all this stuff to a floppy diskette and take it over to work I think and upload everything there. I guess that’s one bad thing about living in a very poor area… The fact that it takes so long for anything to get fixed. I can always go to the LAN house though and login there but its a lot more expensive there… Hmmm I will have to try to find out what's happening and then get all this copied onto floppies.

I cant wait for this semester to be over, it seems like every time I see one of my groups I always have BAD news to give them from the owners of the school. I hate this as im just the teacher and its not my place to upset these guys. This last weekend I had to spring on my groups that people who aren’t going to buy this new lit book will not be allowed to take any oral exam. Some of my students were really pissed about this and also I found out that any teacher that says they aren’t going to have time to correct all these will be fired. You don’t wanna know how many questions we are talking about here but there are around 100 per book and I have quite a lot of students so you can imagine we are probably talking about thousands. This is on top of all the usual stuff I have to do as well so you can see that its not going to be a lot of fun for the teachers right?. A lot of my students in one group work all the time and are also at uni too and they have no time at all for this extra lit book and to say they are upset is an understatement and they are going to contact the head offices of CCAA so you can imagine what the atmosphere is like at the schools at the moment cant you?. I think it will get worse before it gets better and that its going to become a huge mess that will take a long time to get sorted out. I thought it was all about having fun while teaching the English but I guess I must have got it wrong…. Some days I dread going into school as I know its going to be more bad news lol.

Im trying to decide what to do today lol… shall I go to the LAN house or shall I go into Plano Piloto???? I might go and get some new books as I have ran out of things to read although I was reading Jane Austin's sense and sensibility until a couple of days ago. As a book its okay but it’s a little hard to get into at the start. All of her books are basically the same and talk of love between very rich people at a time in history when people didn't marry because of love but to increase wealth or power in order to keep money or power centered only in the rich people of the country. Although at her time of life there were many interesting things happening in history Austin never talks of them in her books, at this period of time the rich and powerful simply ignored anything that tried to change their little lives so we never hear about the industrial revolution or the wars etc. They have a couple of biggish book stores in the city and I might go and have a see what they have on sale there as they might have some decent classical lit such as ones written by Conan Doyle or Jules Verne who I think was one of the very first science fiction writers that I really liked. Ill think of something of that you can be sure lol. It will more than likely be going over to LAN busters though as its just a few minutes from my house.

Anyway I had better go and get something done and get showered, see if my cell phones charged yet and then decide what to do with my day lol. Whatever I decide I have to be back in time for my classes later on.



All I hear is, lyrics, lyrics, constant controversy, sponsors working 'round the clock, to try to stop my concerts early, surely hip-hop was never a problem in Harlem, only in Boston, after it bothered the fathers of daughters starting to blossom, so now i'm catchin' the flack from these activists when they raggin', actin' like i'm the first rapper to smack a bitch, or say faggot, shit, just look at me like i'm your closest pal, the posterchild, the motherfuckin' spokesman now for... White America - Eminem

Can you believe that its 9am and some guy just got me out of bed on the intercom to talk about of all things God lol. I was trying to drink coffee and decipher his portugues at the same time and when you are half asleep trust me its not easy lol. In the end he had to give up once he realized that understood very little of what he was telling me… im guessing it was something like please come to our church meeting he and his little girl went to the neighbors instead. Gave me a chance to practice my portugues though although I knew a lot more of the language than I was letting on lol… I didn't want to end up standing there for twenty minutes half dressed and half asleep talking religion especially at that time crazy time in the morning lol.

Well still no internet connection, three days its been out of action now. It must be something to do with the phone system I think as I cant see an ISP being out of action for this amount of time. There is going to be loads to cut and paste by the time I can upload again, it is starting to pile up on the computer now. I will soon have enough here to make a book at the rate im going lol.

I think ill go over to connexions later this afternoon because there is bound to be loads of still drugged up or drunken people in the streets from the religious ceremonies of the last few days. Talk about religious fanatics.. do you believe they were really celebrating the holy spirit or just using it as an excuse to get drunk or high hmmm? Ill have to ring my students and tell them ill only go later on… it’s a good laugh and I get to meet a few of their friends too which is good as more people get to see that under all my tattoos im not really a crazy brit serial killer lol. I definitely need to get a lot more practice as the last couple of times I have been there I got my ass seriously kicked but then they get to play these games all the time and I hardly ever get the time. For me its just to have a couple of hours fun and to get out of the house for a while too. I wonder if my sons will like going to this place if or when they come to Brasil? We will have to hope that my ex wife's racist feelings haven't rubbed off on them both but I think before I came here I did enough to make sure that my children will not turn out this way ;-)

Oh phones ringing.. need a sec here...

It’s Leonardo one of the students wanting to know what time I will go there but I am waiting here for people to arrive and will more than likely go in the afternoon. Let me shove a cd on here okay?

**Shoving Avril Lavigne in - Playing Things ill never say**

I hope my cds from England will arrive this week, you know it’s a real pain in the arse when I have to wait weeks for stuff to get here from England as to America can only take a couple of days so it must be red tape here that takes so long.

Id better go and correct some stuff I have here so I don’t end up rushing them all tomorrow morning before I go to work.



How could I predict my words would have an impact like this, I must've struck a chord, with somebody up in the office, cause congress keeps telling me I ain't causin' nuthin' but problems, and now they're sayin' i'm in trouble with the government, i'm lovin' it, I shoveled shit all my life, and now I'm dumping it on... - Eminem


Well today has been very noisy and I will be glad when tomorrow has been and gone and things can get back to normal.. well if that is possible here lol. They are celebrating still this festival of the holy spirit.. although people here really don’t care about that just that they can drink and take drugs for a whole weekend. You can imagine in the part of the city I live in people are feeling very nervous at the moment as there are a lot of teenagers completely out of control and staggering around the streets of Estancia. I managed to avoid most of this as I was at work and left really early this morning so that I could miss most of it. With being English I am an instant target for people here as they think I am rich.

Some of my students have been talking to me about the lit books that CCAA have shoved onto them and I think they are going to get in touch with the head office of the CCAA franchise in Rio De Janeiro to see what they have to say… see I don’t think the school is allowed to alter the methodology and class new stuff as CCAA material so I will wait and see what becomes of all this. Unfortunately it wasn't all that well planned when they introduced the lit books and the students were angry that they were not consulted about this when they pay so much money to study the English language at their schools. There is always something isn’t there? Lol

Well I have about one week until that party and im getting just a little nervous now lol. Its crazy right as its just a dance but now I know that this young lady is definitely interested in me I think its making me a little jittery lol. I usually don’t go to parties as I don’t drink but for some reason this time I decided to go… yes it’s a miracle guys and gals lol. Hmmmm I wonder if that country dancing is easy to do as I hardly ever dance… Hopefully they will do something that my poor old legs can cope with, like a very slow dance.. Now that I could cope with ;-) Maybe if we get along well she will teach me a few dance steps.. Hmmmm I will ask her if I see her at work this week as usually I am just leaving as she arrives lol. Life is such an adventure.. don’t you guys think so? Lol

Also I still cant access the internet.. there must be some sort of problem as POP as I try but it just wont connect. I will have to try at work in the week if I cant get online soon although ill use the one in Planaltina as they have dial up access there but not asdl but it will only take me a few minutes to get on and upload all this stuff. At this rate I will be cutting and pasting for ever to get it all there lol. There are only a few people that I know read this from my workplace, I have no idea how many others read it too lol. For me is just my little bit of cyberspace.. my little online part of me that gets updated a lot more than I thought I actually would lol.

Hmmmm I need to eat and get some coffee, gosh im starving lol. Ill stop here and go and raid the kitchen and see what is in the fridge.


You don’t know me
Don’t ignore me
You don’t want me there
You just shut me out
You don’t know me
Don’t ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me up
Make me go away

Unwanted - Avril Lavigne

Well its late afternoon here at the mo and its blistering hot, well for me it is lol. Im melting here at the moment. Hopefully it will cool down a little later on so when I get to work it will be cool enough not to have the air conditioning on. Some of the students don’t like the a/c on as it affects their allergies. Hmm I wonder if you can just catch allergies? Lol. Yeah well enough of that right?…. yeah im going crazy.

Im trying to decide what I am going to do for conversation class later on, I am guessing hardly anyone will come but will just do expressions I think as I have around 100 semi clean expressions I can use depending on who arrives. If two come then I will be surprised as once it goes from weekly to fortnightly they lose interest really quickly. See classes once in a while aren’t no good, they have to be every week as many as I can get to them as it gives a lot of help and confidence and also vocabulary to them too and they get to have a bit of fun at the same time. Where is the fun in once a fortnite? Yeah.. Exactly there isn’t right? Ive got some expressions that will raise a laugh or two, I used them this morning and they thought they were really funny lol. They spent a while trying to figure out what the expression Whip in - Whip out - Wipe it meant lol. Do you know what it means because you can be sure im not going to tell you? Lol. Ive got some more games and stuff we can do though if I have any prudish students or youngsters so not to worry on that part.

Hmmm my net connection still isn’t working…. C'mon Telebrasilia what are you guys playing around at? Lol. How can I post my weblog if there's no connection?. You wouldn’t believe how much I pay for the internet either. In the UK I used to get great deals from BT but here there isn’t anything. Im going to get withdrawal symptoms from the internet soon you know lol. I cant use the one at work as only one of the schools has it and I don’t think there is much possibility of it appearing at the other school anytime in the near future. Oh well I guess I will just have to wait Grrrrrr lol.

Okay time to get Outta here as I have to eat shower and get ready for class too. Maybe ill get to post the weblog later on…. Will see okay?..



I never would've dreamed in a million years i'd see, so many motherfuckin' people who feel like me, who share the same views and the same exact beliefs, it's like a fuckin' army marchin' in back of me, so many lives I touch, so much anger aimed, in no particular direction, just sprays and sprays, and straight through your radio waves it plays and plays, 'till it stays stuck in your head for days and days - Eminem

Hmmm for some reason the telephone isn’t working here this morning, well it is estancia so im not really surprised lol. This is usually the last place that they try to fix anything so it could be tomorrow maybe before it works to my weblog is now confined to the word document and ill copy and paste it whenever the phone system works. Funny for a big company like Telebrasilia you would think they would fix things straight away but it tends to be in the rich areas first and then our poor area whenever they have the time or can be bothered.

I just got into a really strange discussion at work with the secretaries about conversation classes because I turned up for the time one secretary gave me and the other one went crazy because she didn't know lol. Then it turns out this is my fault but they didn't tell me why so you can imagine how crazy it got right? Lol. In the end I just switched off and went into the other part of the school, sometimes there are too many chiefs and too many different things said when really just having one coordinator would solve all these problems. I really wonder now how many teachers are going to be there at the start of the next semester that I know or will it be all new ones?. Even though I warned them that cutting down hours for conversation classes would just mean that no one would bother coming anymore they still went ahead and did it and this morning just two people turned up. Its all about the money and how to make as much as possible in as short a space of time as can be done. Funny I thought it was all about teaching English but maybe I got it all wrong or its just that I see things very differently. Must be my English heritage right? Lol. The students and I talked about maybe doing something out of the control of the school so we will see what comes from all of this I guess.

I found out some nice news yesterday night too, apparently I have an admirer lol. I had my suspicions about this but hadn’t said anything because sometimes how I think things are is sometimes very different because everyone I know is brasilian lol. It makes me smile though as sometimes things here are so so complicated where just a simple question usually solves most things. There are games and games here involving such small things as liking someone and for me coming from England finding this a little confusing lol. God sometimes I get this impression that I am getting so old… Do you know what I mean?. By next Saturday I will probably know all about it as we will both be at the same party and there will probably be hardly any other people who talk English there…. I had suspicions that this was all planned before hand and now I quite sure of it lol. Im not going to say who I think this young lady is here, because people read this?? No just because I wanna see if im right first and then maybe ill shove it on here lol

There is some festival here tonite, im not going to go as I have conversation class to give later on and then ill probably just go home afterwards as im not really into all these different religious festivals here. For me my religion is mine and not really for other people and I hate to have people trying to ram theirs down my throat. Here they haven't really discovered the difference between discussion and conversion lol. There's also a party here on sat night my students asked me to go to, but its real late at nite when it starts and I don’t like being around Planaltina at these hours of the nite. In Plano Piloto it really doesn’t bother me late at nite but they have a lot of police there and here there tends to be very few. I would like to live just a little longer… you know??. The other party of course im going to go as its in Sobradinho and there is a huge difference between here and there lol.

Okay im going to stop here and correct a few things so I don’t have to waste my weekend on them later.. oh and my coffee cup has run dry too lol